I need a win.

I haven't won one in a long time. I need a win a large victory. I Feel like i've been losing far to long. I never expected to keep this job for very long. I thought I would just keep on moving. Much like other situations I've stuck around and fought not knowing why. Probably to my detriment who knows. Some say work is it's own reward. The hell it is, why work towards someone else's benefit when they reap the rewards and you get the scraps from the table? Why fight for something that is ultimately worth losing?
Health benefits, I sold my soul for anti-depressants and a couple of surgical procedures. For some unknown reason I'm stuck in the same place. I put my head down and do my personal work but reality interrupts me. I have to play fetch at the hospital and counselor/ friend on the weekends.
I have been fucked over by so many people and I wonder sometimes that in life am I meant to lose?